christmas time

I hear the sounds of my family laughing, the sounds of glasses clinking and cutlery being scraped across plate, these noises muffled by my retching as i stick my fingers down my throat, further and further i feel like im choking until.. oup comes the chocolate and splash it lands into the toilet bowl accompianed by a spot of blood. this is my 3rd trip to the bathroom and its only lunchtime. Merry Fucking Christmas.